friends do matter!

What a very tiring day--not! It's exactly the opposite. geesh!

Hmm, I woke up this morning determined to not attend my theology class because of my teacher. I dont hate her but the fact that she loss my grade in a major exam, that I incidentally got a perfect score, really pisses me off. It is very frustrating to know that my classmates grades are way better than mine when I am the one who is supposed to be the better one. Hmm, Whatever, I have to forget it before I truly become insane!

So, I also did not attend my Philosophy class. Ha-ha, I just dont want to come in class that's why, ha-ha, and besides, if Im going to try attending my Philo class, I would be late and I would just probably be talking to my seatmates, trying my outmost to make them not understand the lesson because I dont understand the lesson! Luckily our quiz was moved by next week so I have enough time to cope up.

So there was our Compa Lab and there Ive realized something great about friendship, and what about friendship? Hmm, well let's just say that Ive realized how important it is to build a strong relationship together with people outside your league. I mean, yeah from the very beginning of my college life, Ive been around with the guys and now I know that, there are those who are willing to be there, ready to give care and compassion.

Its been a while since Ive took the courage to open up to some people, to be brave and to be honest is really not me, but after thinking that nothing from me will be loss if Im going to say my sentiments to the world to other's, gave me the initiative to be someone else again, someone who's free from discomfort and worries.

I dont know why I stopped trusting people, it was as if I was betrayed in High School that's why I stopped talking to the people around me. But yeah, I feel that I was betrayed by those people whom I trusted, for them secrets are never meant to be secrets, but rather to them, secrets are typical headlines for everybody to know. Of course, I was hurt but I have to move on.

And now is that time!

So from this day forward, Im looking on having a nice relationship with those people whom I think are worth being with.

THIS JUST IN!

james while having a chat with Dom

james: actually walang kwenta tong blog ko kumpara sa iba

dom: wag mo na ikumpara, ang mahalaga gusto mo ung ginagawa mo!

Ponder on that!

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Time to do some posting!

Well, a lot happened after my last entry and again, I don't know where to begin!

OK so after sitting here for what? for five minutes I still haven't formulated anything to blog. I've got so many to say but I cant really organize everything and that is the dilemma of every frustrated writer.

Immaturity. That's my number one problem right now. During the last few days, I was thinking about how can I be this matured person that I've always wanted. Being like me is hard, I mean, every decision I make I think is illogical thus I see myself as a stupid person every time I do something, bottom line is, I keep on failing.

Is failing a part of immaturity? Well, I do think so. If you still have an immature mind and you're trying to be this great being, you cant help but arrive from where you've started. My point is, no matter how hard you try, you're still going to go back from the beginning and start all over again and the hardest part is, you're going to fail again.

That is what's happening to me, and it is not cool to experience that. I do love to succeed on things, I do love to be this person whom everybody looks up to, but I cant be, because I'm still a kid.

It's a long road I know, but when will I arrive to that street of transformation? Am I forever like this? Life for me now is so ambiguous, there are so many what ifs. In time, I hope I'd be on that point wherein everything will be so in placed.

Life is a drama. Take it from me.

Summer is fast approaching and boy believe me time is moving faster than ever. In a week, I think, I probably experience only two days, that's why my watch seems to have a hundred batteries inside. I never experienced this in my life! Is this a sign of being a real CRS student? You know, I think that I wake up every morning to take an exam, I wake up every morning to read books and comprehend things, how weird am I to conclude that finishing a chapter in comparative anatomy is my purpose in life. I'm a total nerd, a very handsome nerd! ha-ha just kidding!

But I've got plans this summer. I have this list in my mind that I'm willing to fulfill. I need to make this summer, a summer worth remembering. These are I think all of my agenda;

1. Get rid of eye bags.
2. Get rid of my love handles.
3. Build some muscle.
4. Practice my swimming skills again.
5. Go for tennis!
6. Be a Barrista!
7. Running without having to catch my breath.
8. Finish at least one book.
9. Have a Chemistry overview.
10.Enroll in La Salle's summer English program. (If it is still available)
11. YWCA
12. Go for a trip somewhere with a person I don't know.
13. Develop maturity skills. (ha-ha)
14. Take some driving lesson.
15. Appreciate myself and the world around me.

I will do my best to do all that!

And my entry ends here..

linggo

Im trying to make a good first entry and I ended up doing this;

1. Why am I bored? Is it because I have nothing to do after enduring a very stressful examination week?

2. Why am I complaining about having the chance to rest?

3. I want my mind to work.

4. Im stuck at my room and I want to go somewhere.

5. Is it really better to be in my school than at our house?

6. How I love to cram again.

7. My whole mouth is swelling. I had an appointment yesterday with my dentist and oh boy, it really hurts.

8. I cant eat well. Im tired of being hungry.

9. I have no energy.

10. I want to be active.

11. I want to run, climb a mountain or swim.

12. Im totally bored.

13. Im listening to spongecola right now.

14. How I miss being in High School.

15. Gilmark used to play all their songs.

16. What about Gilmark? I miss him and all of those who I consider friends.

17. I was just thinking about the smell of my armpits.

18. I want to sleep

19. KLSP is the song that is playing right at this very moment.

20. Shiny just messaged me.

21. Im thinking about where the heck is she going right after she's dressed.

22. This is the twenty second number and Im worried about nothing.

23. For a sec I thought that there was a cockroach beside me.

24. Wait, Im going to eat my lucky me supreme.

25. Ok.

26. Im finished. within 2 minutes I swallowed the whole freaking thing.

27. SWALLOWED really.

28. Im really disgusting

29. Yeah, I know.

30. I want to have some beer.

31. Why am I thinking about this kind of stuffs?

32. Boredom

33. Obviously thats the reason! Youre dumb if you havent figured that out.

34. Just kidding.

35. Well maybe a part of me meant it.

36. I just farted

37. I want this day to end.

38. I want my life to end.

39. Now that's a joke.

40. God has plans for me and He told me that I'm still going to live.

41. Dragonfly, know that song?

42. This blog will end after the 50th item.

43. Damn I suck.

44. I really do.

45. No I dont, Im just bored and my mind isnt just working right, that's why I think that I suck

46. Im hungry again

47. It's only 5:57 pm and I started this whole thing 20 minutes ago.

48. Oh its number 48, this blog is slowly ending

Let's make the last two numbers worth reading

49. Im going to start planning my activities about this upcoming summer, as ive said before, this summer should be one heck of a vacation. I'm turning 17 this October and really, before being a young adult, I should have at least known an important something that will stay in my life forever.

50. and this is one thing that I want to do

I want to go somewhere, somewhere away from the city. I want to travel from place to place, discover new people and amuse myself with the different cultures our country is offering. I want to experience new adventures and all those I want to experience together with a person I dont know.

How ironic right? Doing everything that I want together with an unknown person, when it is supposed to be with the person that you love. But I guess, it's a part of the challenge, being with a stranger is a task, you have to cope up with each other, you have to adjust so you could travel happily together. But of course thinking about it made me realize that maybe being with a completely different person is what it takes for me to really discover my world.

I'm looking forward to that. I really love to fulfill that journey.

And this blog ends here.