It doesnt take forever to make you happy.A moment can do if you put your heart on it.Never think of the future nor the past.Enjoy the present and make the most out of it.

Sunday, April 8, 2007

hello summer 07!

Who the heck am I? Often times these days, I ask this question a lot and why do I do this? Simply because I can find any reason to not to. I dont know myself. I dont know anything about myself and that's what holding me back from doing things.

I love to tell people that they are wrong and that what my opinion is, is right. I love to tell people that they are these social climbing person's and that's really bad, but the truth is, somehow deep within me, I'm a social climber and I want to be the talk of the whole crowd. I love to tell people how they should nicely treat others but the truth of the matter, I'm this kind of person who secretly tries to make a person feel bad about himself. I love to tell people how to manage their lives properly so that they could live a better one, but on the contrary, Im this type who cannot live without trying to sin.

So who the hell am I? Its freakin scary you know when you have so many skeletons in your closet. It will really interfere to your decisions and eventually can destroy your true identity.

Is this still included in the topic about immaturity or is this something bigger? Can someone help me, I dont know what to do, I cant afford to go to a psychologist and who the hell in the Philippines will go to a psychologist? Weird as it gets but really, I need someone intelligent to talk to. Someone who can objectively and subjectively understand my situation.

This summer, I should figure this out or else, I'll have to brood with my own life mistakes again.

I'm sick and tired of the same old problems. I think I've been questioning myself ,with the same question, since I've become a full fledged high school student. Adolescence, if thats what you call this is, a phase or whatever, but Im tired. Really, I have to end this and start with something new.





1 comment:

saisho said...

been there. lmao. but don't worry, it just like a 'phase' or whatever that everybody goes through.

But hey, you're in college right and you have a few years more. the 'who am i' phase will surely pass.